I'm there.

The place was full of people,a sea of black.They stood in groups,some made small talk.Some merely dabbed at their eyes.Adam killed himself.He slit himself.His once strong wrists were in a mangled mess.I vaguely remember yelling myself hoarse when my father walked into the room and said,"Honey..Adam's dead."Just like that.No prelude.No explanation.!8 years and 2 seconds.We come down to the same thing.Adam..who stuck his tongue out and yelled "you're a girl..boo" when we were small and played cricket.Adam..who punched me in my stomach, because i called him ugly.Adam..who fought with me because he knew i'd still be his best friend.Adam..who spoke to me at night on the phone,till i practically fell asleep.Adam my best friend for 18 goddamn years.Is dead.And all i can do is yell.
The priest is whispering something to Adam's dad.He signals to me and i walk up to him, my legs feeling like lead."Adam would have wanted you to talk."
I walk up to the altar,a churchfull of people looking up at me.their faces solemn.
i begin,my voice quaking so much that i cant understand what i am saying.i breathe and start again
"If it were upto Adam,now,id probably wearing a pair of old shorts and my nightshirt.If it were upto Adam,id probably be carrying his cricket bat.But its not upto him anymore.In the past few months,i lost my best friend.I couldnt get myself to talk to him.He scared me.He wouldnt talk.he never smiled.he'd brood all day long.I really dont know why.And the loser that i was i never asked.I gave him his space.But thats where i messed up.Because sometimes when people say "Leave me alone" they actually mean "im dying of loneliness.please come and hold my hand,because i cant face this alone." Adam was the last person who people thought would kill himself.Because when you're cricket team captain,class rep,the best looking guy around and have a wonderful set of parents, your life is perfect.Apparently not.Beneath all this Adam was just another guy,who watched FRIENDS and laughed and hoped that his best friend would call, when she'd just hung up on him.She didnt.Im sorry Ad.Im sorry,i was away fighting my own demons when you needed me to help fight yours.Especially since all my life,you have fought mine.Im sorry.It sounds cold,but really i am here for you.Its useless now.It really is. I was always there.just that i didnt make sure you knew it.What can i say?One day we'll talk it out,over a Chicken Sub and coke.And no issues,this time i'll pay for dessert.We'll talk it out."

I walked out of the church,crying too hard to talk.And if im not mistaken i felt the presence of a tall,handsome boy with a broad smile and a cricket bat.

JLT

6:30am:Wake up long enough to snooze alarm.go back to sleep.
6:40am:Phone is making sounds.Think its alarm.Press snooze again.Apparently,its NOT alarm.
Its a wake up call from mother,who is away on morning walk.Cut the call.Go back to
sleep.
6:50am:Phone rings again.Talk gibberish to mother,who is sounding ultra-cheerful despite the
inhuman hour.Go back to sleep.
7:15 am:Finally,get up.Realise that its late and there is no time to wash hair,as planned.React to
the situation by hurling copy of the oxford mini dictionary that is lying around,across
the room.
7:30am:Major panic.Cant find ironed clothes.And the forces of the world decide that now is a
good time for the ghar ka iron to conk off.
8:04am:Waiting on andheri stn, with wet hair(plan was executed,not efficiently though)and
red shirt and red shoes.Close resemblance to Santa Claus.
10:30am:Happiness comes in form of break.Happiness vanishes in a minute,when some angel
comes by and informs of random meeting on the other side of college.
12:10pm:Run to library to xerox stats notes.Lib guy is a pain and says that i wont be allowed
because my lib card is torn.Words that are exchanged are not printed here to protect
sentiments.Monarch saved my life.Xerox at rs.50ps.Bless them!
1:00pm:Wonderfully over-enhusiastic girl from class informs about stats honours at 2.right,
when Im leaving college.Strong urge to faint.
1:03pm:Impromtu plan to visit McDonalds.Idea of coke float cheers me up.
1:30pm:McDonalds.Im Lovin it!
2:00pm:Stats honours.Realise for once,what it feels to feel sleepy,tired,flustered,bored,angry
and dazed out at same time.Spend time laughing at comments made from peers around.
4:30pm:Trudge to mess,for food.Mess is closed.
4:34pm:Settle for vadapav,that is consumed in a minute.Eat more than half the packet of pure
magic biscuit that friend has purchased for herself.Aware that friend might be cursing
me in her mind,too tired to do anything about it.
4:45pm:Walk to washroom.Spend ages.First washing face etc.Then waiting for friend to finish
brushing her hair.
5:00pm:Walk to CCD, to meet more friends.Aware of sick feeling,that feels like my legs are
made of lead.
5:13pm:Settle in sofa,in CCD.Very very sleepy.Ignore friends who are making random wise
cracks.
6:30pm:Get up to leave,full of vegan shake and packets of sugar!
7:00pm:Reach churchgate stn,in a bad mood,for no apparent reason.Board stupid train and crib
to friend,who patiently listens to my tales of woe!
8:00pm Take a bus at andheri stn that is very crowded.Listen to music.Hear the song 'yeh ishq
haeee" thrice on different radio stations.
8:20pm:Reach home to see ghar ke lights off.Realise its that 'batii band' thing.Feel proud of
parents.
8:45pm:Go for bath.Come out with chattering teeth.Hurriedly change and crash into bed after
eating one and a half chicken sandwich.
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Aha!

Hey..Read this in a magazine.. Quite liked it, so thought i'll write something on the same lines..

Things that are "oh-so-right" together:

~Your favorite grey sweatshirt and steaming hot chocolate.
~Sleepless nights and lame SMS forwards
~Freshly shampooed hair and flavoured lipgloss
~Faded denims and converse all star
~Your oldest pair of shorts and coloured socks.
~Kohl and a starched white kurta
~Leftover potato chips and unsolved crosswords.
~First rains and coffee.
~Stormy weather and horror movies.
~Heavy rains and your favorite book.
~Bryan Adams and crying over nothing at all.
~Curly hair and biting sarcarsm
~Soft blankets and smiling to yourself
~Cellphones and gossip
~Best friends and aimless chatter
~Ringing laughter and the college canteen
~McChicken and A medium coke.
~Chocolate and walnut brownie with warm chocolate sauce
~Raised eyebrows and "Damn you"s
~Hanging up on friends and calling back in a minute.
~Snicker Bars and Tom-and-jerry marathon cartoon sessions
~Buttered popcorn and a chick-flick.
~Newspapers and page 3
~Cheese-capsicum sandwich and nimbu paani
~Wooden bangles and a cloth bag
~Pajamas and 8am eco lectures
~Standard deviation and scientific calculators
~"Ahhh...Im Bored!!" and commerce classes.
~Harry potter and your very own Dobby :-)
~Hot water baths and warm towels.
~Siblings and in-jokes
~Colaba causeway and junk jewellery